sadness

Too Late
Originally uploaded by aarthyr.

... in honor to all beloved ones ... this is a wonderful photo for this week. A tough week for me. Impacted me the most. Last week, my uncle has terminal cancer, so my mom flew to her country to see him. This week, my father emailed me that my grandma has passed away. Just yesterday, my best friend's father was gone. I never knew how much it can filled my heart with grief. overloaded. There was more than just death: confusion. It made me withdraw a bit further. Harder to define one to accept oneself. Or whatever that means. I don't even know if that makes sense to you. Like my father wrote "2 things unavoidable: death and taxes." Yes, to accept death is a way nature goes, but cheating or forcing death in one's life? that doesn't feel right.

I'm gonna get some sleep early to depart 4 am - a long ride from Georgia to Louisiana - attending funeral this weekend.